A Simple Life…

hi guys, i’m back…i’ve been lazy and exploring my new hp tat’s y din update my blog for so long…yup, finally i’ve got my XDA O2 mini for myself, thanks to the progress package tat give mi the edge to buy it…haha…and of cos to Grant who tempted mi to buy…actually i was accompany Grant to look for O2 mini/atom hp @ toa payoh…but in the end we both got ourselves e the hp…haha…wif the upgradin yun’s line, i paid $300 for a 6mths old O2 mini….Grant bought a 2weeks old O2 mini for $400 wif trade-in of his N6630…though it’s second hand but it’s still worth e money buyin at least we both felt tat rite?a big thanks to Grant for givin mi tis chance to grab great deal….a win-win situation after all rite, Grant?

testing my O2 camera(1.3 megapixel)…

~my cheeky smile~

~yun’s cheeky look~

                                 ~our blissful pic~

jus days before mother’s day on sunday, i’ve recieved calls and messages from my squadron mates telling mi about Kok Ann’s mother’s death…i was so shock to hear tis news…his father had jus passed away during our days as trainees last year and now…the emotion side of mi suddenly sat in…

"did we always take our parents for granted?we hav to make use of tis previous time left to repay our parents before it becomes too late/before we can’t, we never know when the time will come…cherish the moments before we regret…"

i’ve attended the wake on mother’s day noon along with my squadron mates…it was hard on Kok Ann, hopefully he can stand up on his feet soon and move on with his life…Kok Ann jia you….

Back to camp…my senior batch of POs, Chong, Emmanuel, James was going ORD real soon le…these realli stirs up my mood…havin to c them clearing their leaves, getting out of this f**king squadron life…wahh…so envy….haiz….ya, my buddy James is oso leaving, i’ll b bored soon….

~the last moment of my buddy/bunk mate James, hahaha~

 

                   ~tis is my bunk shared with James~

        ~tis small tv set is my onli entertainment in camp~

~Steph Song poster on my cabinet with calendar counting down~

~my untidy bed made up of 2 mattress, yun help mi tidy~

      ~netted windows to separate mi wif the mosqitoes~

                   ~my onli source of fresh air~

now u guys noe y i’m bored if i stay in tis small bunk?nvm…my days are limited now…havin told to go South Africa for overseas detachment and 26 days of leaves, i’ve left wif roughly 3 more months….haha……

should end my post here, more pictures till then….

Yup…it’s been quite some time since i can slack at home for such a long break…i’ve been for off since last friday till today, 5 days of break has swung my mood to ORD mood…com’on another 170 more days/5 more months….although it’s gettin closer to my freedom but deep inside mi der’s a fear growin up s days goes by…the fear of my future, my career…a step back into e society, i’m not a newbie in tis wrkin society…but tis feeling is indescribable, mayb it’s jus too much of worries…

BBQ @ sentosa….pls no more BBQ @ sentosa…

firstly - der’s no BBQ pits
secondly - der’s always visitors looking for u (flying insects like beetles)
thirdly - der’s rangers driving around putting out fire (our BBQ portable pit)
fourthly - we hav to pay to step in those artificial beaches
fifthly - e toilets are miles away

the above problems were encountered wen i’ve a 6-man BBQ gathering proudly organised by yun on last sat…huishan, yun no offence k…BBQ is no allowed @ sentosa for those who dunno…BBQ is onli allowed at those chalet areas and not by the sea areas like east coast…y?i realli dunno…mayb to protect tis artificial beaches from pollutions of litters, food left after e BBQ…but y protect artificial beaches and not those natural beaches like east coast?anyone knows?yup those rangers were driving around in their jeep looking for people lik us who try to bend e rules…ont once but twice dey caught us red handed, luckily dey were nice din really say much except "NO BBQ HERE, PLS PUT OUT THE FIRE", no punishment or warning given, mayb dey’re trying to hint us to be more tactical…haha…the food we brought were more or less bbq, so we end e BBQ after the rangers second visit…kinda spoilt mood feeling for tis BBQ as we all thought it’ll end quite late…it’s more like 2 guys BBQ and 4 gers photo taking session @sentosa….great experience nice gathering after all….

atms were packed these few days, ya most of us have got our progress package…singaporeans are happi, every once a yr at least…i’m happi to have another $900 in my bank…u noe i can b v happi to c how much our bank has in the end of the day…crazy rite?mayb it’s the achievement of having to save up tat much makes mi happi…although is not tat much in figures, but it’s a good beginning rite?we have to enjoy ourselves too wen easy money comes, ya i’ve or we’ve bought ourselves a ipod nano 1gb…we went to mustafa yesterday to look for a mp3 player for ourselves(yun)…wah mustafa is not a good place to shop at…that day was raining, the pavements were packed with mostly indians all the way to the shopping centre…it looks like 2 white ants surrounded by hundreds of black ants from top view…haha…yun’s budget was around $150, but in tat kinda range, there’s onli samsung/creative/ipod shuffle 512mb player but dey dun look appealing to mi…in the end we went for ipod nano for $238, $90 more but yun looks more happier, it makes mi feel happi too…but it’s kinda hard to use for 1st timers lik us…haha…2 mountain tortoises…haha…

shall end my post here, mayb meeting up some old friends of mine ltr tonite…dun fly plane k gary, grant, weiqiang etc…

yup…i’ve finally shifted my entire blog over to blogspot(http://alexlawkw.blogspot.com/) due to the limitations in this friendster blog…it doesn’t support any scripting, any objects(managed to add some in), and any templates changing, but onli lots of advertisements…dun worry friendster, in future i’ll still post tis blog to keep it active…

see!how’s my new blog look?good?haha…spent days creating scripts to make tis new look blog…actualli as a programmer, that’s my ‘rice bowl’, programming, web publishing…i’ve realli lost touch in my scripting after leaving ploy for abt 2yrs…it’s kinda refreshing for mi…mayb it’s time for mi to pick up my java, vb programming before i’m out of service uh…haiz…looking ahead now…

well, things are progressing smoothly for mi…managed to struggle through rehearsals after rehearsals of Change Of Command parade for our new chief of air force, BG Ng…haiz so suay chosen again for parade some more onli a day off after putting so much effort…mi becoming more and more like a malay now…now i’m away from my squadron for a short 2 weeks course, it doesn’t turn out to be s good s i thought, intense lectures from 8-5 everyday, for mi it’s a torture…having another test tommorrow, "SAF test wun fail one…", that’s y i’m still blogging now…haha…i’ve went for 4 driving courses so far le, so fun having a chance to drive…it’s realli enjoying and exciting, looking forward for the next lesson…

suddenly, feeling a rush to go furthur my studies in gaming programming or special effect programming or even hp java programming…haiz, you xin wu li…oki la, self study myself…

~Me wearing my new adidas sneaker~

~Top view~

Yeah…finalli bought this sneaker for myself…haha so happi…i’ve been wearing my old school adidas shoes for more than 3 years, till it turns yellowish..haha…i’ve been aiming for this pair of shoes for 2months le, nice rite?it’s $109 but with the help of jonathon’s sports link membership, i got it for $89 with 20% off, great deal rite?thanks bro….

i’ll be going for my 1st driving lesson tml morning…so excited…haha…it had been dragging for so long….finalli, i’ve made up the time to get my PDL…stupid traffic police department onli opens 8-5 on weekdays and 8-12 on sat…hope i can absorb s much s i can tml and oso to pass my TP with just ONE attempt…haha, still so far from it now…hee…things seems like going smoothly now…

…BON JOVI LYRICS "Always"…Another Bon Jovi’s song, my favourite!!

"Always"

This romeo is bleeding
But you can’t see his blood
It’s nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It’s been raining since you left me
Now I’m drowning in the flood
You see I’ve always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can’t sing a love song
Like the way it’s meant to be
Well, I guess I’m not that good anymore
But baby, that’s just me

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - Always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I’d give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I’ve made mistakes, I’m just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you’ve been needing to hear
I’ll wish I was him ’cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There’s no price I won’t pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain’t no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We’ll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - Always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you - Always

what a week, i’ve heard break off news from 2 of my close friends, james and jonathon…at least both of dem are able to let it go easily…u noe wat’s common between dem?both are in national service…isn’t that difficult to be in relationship wen in ns?well…i’ve no comments =x…perhaps gals dunno the physical or mental stress we faced everyday in camp…dey’re not interested in hearing abt army "thing" but only news of sales @mango…maybe gals dunno that weekends are the only 2days for us to relax ourselves from being command to do this and that…and not for serving dem or listening to their commands like their camp’s officer…maybe to dem all these are excuses, wat can the guys do?

next expectations, gals always compares how u treat dem with how some of her close friends’ bfs treat her close friends…or even her ex treats her…maybe without notice dey’ll compare trust mi…we’ll be losers if anyone is being compared to us…in terms of money, we just draw less than half of what dey earn outside let alone bonues which can mount up to our half a yr allowance…and with money, money can buy happiness, can go shopping and buy wat u want, can eat good food at restaurants and shower u gifts every now and den…wat we can give is just window shopping, buy something that we had to save for months or to squeeze ourselves for the next pay day…eat onli at fast food or food court…which would u prefer?

for us, all we hope for is more understanding, we had lowered our expectation from u what else can we hope for?

no offence to any gals or the ns, jus an opinnon of mine…

…BON JOVI LYRICS "I`ll Be There For You"…Enjoy this song, 2 thumbs up!!

"I’ll Be There For You"

I guess this time you’re really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it’s suicide

You say you’re cried a thousand rivers
And now you’re swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won’t save me anymore

Now I’m praying to God you’ll give me one more chance, girl

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

I know you know we’re had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can’t buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I’ll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I’ll be the wine

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

[Solo]

And I wan’t there when you were happy
I wasn’t there when you were down
I didn’t mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I’d seen you blow those candles out

I’ll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I’ll be there for you
I’d live and I’d die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can’t say what a love can do
I’ll be there for you

    ~My 6th Valentine with Dar~

ya…lunar new year is just around the corner…2 more days will be new year’s eve…as usual i’ll be having my dinner wif my family but without my jiefu who is away to dunno where for his business trip…haiz…dunno got left ang bao for us anot…haha…then after that?guys out der…any plans after dinner?anyway got gambling call mi k?haha…heard tat tis year is a good year for those who are born in the year of pigs…hopefully tis year will be a big fat new year for mi…haha…still got alot of things i (or we) longed to buy…heee…

luckily tis year’s lunar new year falls on the sunday which means der will be an extra day for us to gamble or to gather some old friends…esp those from my secondary, hardly c or contact dem…misses the old school days, we jus play play and play so carefree uh…unlike now, we have to lie down our own paths for the future, dun pray pray liao…

ya….for my bmt camp mates, der will be another gathering like last year at yilong’s hse on the 4 feb at 9am…girlfriends and wifes r welcome….more ppl come more money can lose to mi…haha…jialat kept tinking of wining money…haha…tinking of having a liao yu sheng session den…so tat everything will be smooth for us till we ORD together on oct’06….how izzit?not bad idea rite?haha…MR SIM dun run away uh contact mi if u happen to c tis post…can’t contact u thru cell phone….always lik tat…c u guys then…Duty!Honour!Country!Ninja Company!….

After that i’ll be gathering my ex cd rama’s friend at linda’s hse….tis realli hard to meet all u guys, all bz working, hopefully can realli gather guys like ah ben, ah xiu, jeffery…realli long time no c le…abt a year back le…u guys must go k….or else no one der how to gamble?at least 3 must come k, can play majong…haha…c u guys….

tat’s all, not much programmes planned, so anyone wanna advance book mi tag mi k…haha…so thick skin…anyway realli hope to gather up some old lost friends during this festive season…so tag mi and we meet up k….lastly, i wish everyone out der an advance happi lunar new year to u….gong xi fa chai….

Can’t imagine a guy like mi to start having blog…a person that is poor in english…haha…out of e sudden after reading some blogs, i begun to have a feeling to have one…maybe thats a good place to pour all my anger out, or to let at least someone to understand mi better…anyway, this is my 1st post…"got angbao anot"….haha..

wa…today is another day…tat’s wat i always says wen the day ended boring…surpose to be a fun day like being "single" going out wif my camp mates james and ron…dun get mi wrong , my gf out for sun yanzi concert tats y…having walking round orchard road for hours searching for new yr clothes and ended up empty handed…realli dunno wat to buy…shirts and pants again for new yr…errr…wat else?i had no idea…ended up we jus eat and chat e whole evening…like uncle uh…but wat else we can do uh 2guys in orchard?

having so unwilling to end e day "it’s another day", we went to alley bar to look for my buddy raymond…just to catch up with him…btw thanks bro!for e chicken wings and drinks and sending mi safety back home…sorry to bother u…u noe wat, we 2 uncles chat till alley bar closing at 3am…haha nothing to do ma den jus chat lo…

haiz…realli feel myself getting older le…felt so tired after staying out so late…age is catching up wif mi le…things became more and more boring…life is getting more and more meaningless…nothing seems to be exciting to mi now…mayb tat’s y less smile and laughter is squeezing out from mi….i’ve asked myself so many times…y?y am i like tat?nothing new to inspire mi?is singapore being a boring place to be in?my relationship problems?no answer seems to be correct…mayb e closest answer is i’m a boring person wif no active hobbies…nothing to look forward to…i’ve been lost for yrs looking for e ans…ever since e setback 08 april ‘01…mayb wen i started my driving courses things might change…mayb wen i ORD on oct…i’m realli dunno…

life is meaningless, u born with nothing, work hard to achieve, u die with nothing but jus bones under 6 feet….